I felt the urge to confess today, ma. I always came up with excuses not to. I always found wiggle room.
Today I decided I will not run anymore.
I spent a long time before the Blessed Sacrament. Dithering over whom to go to? how to phrase my numerous sins? The tears kept flowing. I could only think of you.
I am grateful to you for my faith, ma. For being my role-model and teaching me how to forgive, how to empathise, how to love unconditionally. You and Nana are such strong influences in my life. And I couldn’t have asked for better human beings, better Catholics. I am so grateful for you and the wonderful example you set for me by your actions.
I want to hold on to you… but not with sadness and anger at your loss. I want to remember the wonderful lessons you taught me… the examples of patience and perseverance you provided… the generosity… the wisdom.
You never stopped giving ma… and even beyond this earthly domain… you still keep giving.
I love you, Mommy… I am so proud to be your daughter!
