Ravings, Rants, Rendezvous with the voices in my head!
This right here … is a promise… the promise of summer! The pandemic changed everyone’s lives and overturned many a plan. I’ve been blessed not to have much taken from me … My biggest loss has been that of my wings. The joy of exploring a new place and…This right here … is a promise… the promise of summer!The pandemic changed everyone’s lives and overturned many a plan.I’ve been blessed not to have much taken from me … My biggest loss has been that of my wings. The joy of exploring a new place and stumbling upon some hitherto, unknown gem.In a couple of weeks I’ll be vaccinated and in a few months things will be back to “normal”. Why are we so keen to go back to “normal”? Normal wasn’t working for the planet. Normal wasn’t working for many of us. Normal definitely wasn’t working for me.We are a species with a very short memory. We write books but forget the moral. I don’t want normal. I’m not the only one who doesn’t.Being stuck in traffic. Stupid reality shows shoved down our throats in the name of entertainment. Excessive consumption. The inability to be grateful for all we have.As the season turns, I hope I can do things differently. I hope you can do things differently. I hope each of us gets the “normal” we long for!
As I paint my nails with polish I took from mum’s collection, I look back on 2020. What a year! It’s been tumultuous to say the least. Several lost their livelihoods. Several lost loved ones. Homes, assets, ideals – nothing is sacred to a virus. I feel all their pain….As I paint my nails with polish I took from mum’s collection, I look back on 2020. What a year!It’s been tumultuous to say the least. Several lost their livelihoods. Several lost loved ones. Homes, assets, ideals – nothing is sacred to a virus. I feel all their pain. And I hope 2021 will be better.Personally, I consider myself blessed. Health, work and every other way. And each moment, I am grateful for that.Work was demanding, however the rewards came in as well. The biggest life changer for me was that my company was forced to allow us to work from home. Those hours not spent commuting, enabled me to finish several personal goals.Upped my creds this year by earning 8/9 certificates in a Data Science course. Trained in AWS Architecting.Several Creative Live and Portrait Masters courses prepared me to relocate my studio and shoot 3 new clients.Enjoyed my garden and shot it to my heart’s content. Edited to my heart’s content. Pleasantly surprised myself by knowing more than I expected.Indulged in several photoshoots and numerous conversations with my muse & mentor.Became a knitter, a baker and a kimchi maker.Created and redesigned websites:solivagant.lifeMet some wonderful artists.Realised who my true friends are.Won my first pub quiz.Went green.Took baby steps to breaking the clutches of capitalism.Stopped feeding trolls.Detoxed by unfollowing and unfriending those who valued sensation over facts.Found my faith, right when I needed it the most.Missed those who aren’t around anymore.Thanked the Lord for those who are.This year started with different plans. Somewhere in the first quarter, survival became more important . But right in the middle of the lockdown, I realised just surviving wouldn’t cut it. I wanted to endure, not just survive.I’ve endured 2020. You have too. Happy New Year. Wishing you health, peace and loads of love!-
- This weight we carry. The expectations.The pressures society places on us, even before we are old enough to understand them.Dreams are no longer limitless. Our future isn’t unbounded.It’s doctor, engineer or just an operations manager.Rich people teach their kids to invest, to make money grow.While the rest don’t know…This weight we carry. The expectations.The pressures society places on us, even before we are old enough to understand them.Dreams are no longer limitless. Our future isn’t unbounded.It’s doctor, engineer or just an operations manager.Rich people teach their kids to invest, to make money grow.While the rest don’t know how to handle their finances.They scramble, they save, they scrounge. To no avail.Some succeed, but most are stuck in the 9 to 5 rut.
- A pandemic. Now how could such a situation help a person evolve.Appreciation: That elusive, forgotten quality.It makes me doubt if like a phoenix, I am capable of rising from the ashes.It makes me doubt if I was ever a phoenix.Youth and it’s fallacies, in old age revealed!A pandemic. Now how could such a situation help a person evolve.Appreciation: That elusive, forgotten quality.It makes me doubt if like a phoenix, I am capable of rising from the ashes.It makes me doubt if I was ever a phoenix.Youth and it’s fallacies, in old age revealed!
We keep the good things for a special day. Wait to open the champagne on a day we deign ‘special’. We keep the good perfume away, the beautiful china in cupboards.My nan and mum did that too. They taught me that as well. For years I saved the best…We keep the good things for a special day. Wait to open the champagne on a day we deign ‘special’. We keep the good perfume away, the beautiful china in cupboards.My nan and mum did that too. They taught me that as well. For years I saved the best for that special day.Thankfully I woke to the realisation that each day is special. Each day is worth a celebration.Life’s for the living, so live it!
She was a queen. She was exalted.She was adored If you look carefully, you can still find remains of her glory days! #YouthIsntSacred #PastPrime
A wake up call. I was getting ready for my morning coffee when the girl behind the counter referred to me as Señora. I guess she was being polite, but instead of settling back into my routine of news about mayhem and madness it got me thinking of…- Today was about playing one thought over and over again in my head. Forgiveness. I’ve been battling that demon for a while now. Forgiving others is simpler than forgiving yourself. And part of me is stuck in that vortex. When your mind and heart are at battle, peace can…
- Years ago, I jumped on the prime wagon. One of the most attractive offers was “Unlimited Photo Storage”. When my External disk failed and caused much heartache, I realised I didn’t have any backup of my pics. I managed to get the disk read, but was still missing a…
The universe sent me a message… I heeded it! Still hurt for the choices I make. But then one grows up and realises that there are better things and better people to spend time on.- While practicing the harp today, it was only the minors that got played.
Jump from a plane… while it’s 4000 mts high. Meh, I said! My procrastination skills did almost cancel the whole experience. Too cold, too sad, too happy, friends said they’d like to join in, friends aren’t responding. A never ending list of reasons. But then, Time has a way…- I feel the weight. With each breath, with each passing second. Being pulled down, being held down. When prayers go unanswered. And loneliness is the order of the day.
Another year. Older, not much the wiser, but phew… what a journey. Looking back I have so many memories that will bring a smile on or cause a tear to roll. A rollercoaster of highs, lows, and in-betweens. The last year is one to remember, not all for good…
We walk through life wishing for so many things. Wishing, hoping, lighting candles, losing sleep over things our hearts desire. And while longing for that something, we forget to live in the moment. We may get what we long for, we may not, but in the in-betweens of hoping and…- Acer palmatum – Japanese maple: The bright afternoon invited a flurry of activity. I love sunny days, when spring sets the garden aflame with colour, I love walking around, touching the trees and flowers, encouraging them to bloom. The magnum opus of my garden is an “Acer palmatum” commonly…
